Do I have a mental illness?

How many times already I have this feeling that I need to re-organise my life? Study, work, daily routine... I seem to never satisfy with my life and there's always sth that doesn't look right.

And this time... I decided to transfer my work from Maroubra Junction to Epping. Why? coz I'm sick with taking buses to work on weekends. It's just too stressing. Why not Brighton Le Sans but Epping? Well... it's closer to Juz's place so he can send me home after work at night. Sounds reasonable? But I still have a lot to consider abt... Should I move to Epping or nearby e.g. Strathfield? Would I be able to cover the cost if I want to realise my dream of taking a unit on my own? Who's gonna pay for it if I go overseas at the end of the year or when I go practical for 3 mths next yr?

Endless things fly pass my mind... Mostly, financial stress. Living on ur own is never an easy job! How I wish my brother can invest here rather than in Brisbane! How I wish I were richer! Haha... Somehow, my repititive thoughts of re-organising my life seemed like a mental illness to me. Better check with my fren doing psychology. Haha...

Anyways, I found myself a bit reckless these days. Lying on the bed with my eyes shut, I still could not fall asleep. Maybe I'm over-loaded and I need to find a way to relax myself. Thereby, I joined Fitness First and yesterday was my first day. I attended group classes e.g. Body steps, cycling session and body attack. I didn't last for the last class coz it's a superb energetic class. It nearly killed me. Haha... Despite muscle aches, it was fun! I would like to try out other classes next time e.g. Body Pump, Body Combat, Body Balance, Pilate, Lo-lite, and Yoga.